Day 4 and I have been preoccupied with planning for a big interview for tomorrow. Bit of pain as I have to interview for my own job -bureaucracy at its very best. There has been a contract change in our organisation and roles have been changed and renamed (plus a small pay rise) so I have to interview for my own job and one of my colleagues is also going for it out of spite as her role didn't attract the extra pay.
I am well prepared, have lots of experience, feel mostly confident but there is that little niggle at the back of my mind that worries I will not succeed. That same niggling voice in the back of my mind is the very same one that chats to me about booze, "start fresh on Monday", "you're not as bad as some people", "don't you deserve something to relax you?" It was also screaming at me tonight to indulge as it knows I LOVE a bit of sabotage. Common sense prevailed and I knew that if I did drink tonight and didn't get the job it would do untold damage to my already fragile confidence and self esteem that would have repercussions down the way for months if not years.
Anyway, I am as prepared as I can be and I just have to have confidence and belief in myself.
That's all for now.