Wednesday, 25 October 2017

Day 4 - lucky distraction

Day 4 and I have been preoccupied with planning for a big interview for tomorrow. Bit of pain as I have to interview for my own job -bureaucracy at its very best. There has been a contract change in our organisation and roles have been changed and renamed (plus a small pay rise) so I have to interview for my own job and one of my colleagues is also going for it out of spite as her role didn't attract the extra pay.

I am well prepared, have lots of experience, feel mostly confident but there is that little niggle at the back of my mind that worries I will not succeed. That same niggling voice in the back of my mind is the very same one that chats to me about booze, "start fresh on Monday", "you're not as bad as some people", "don't you deserve something to relax you?"  It was also screaming at me tonight to indulge as it knows I LOVE a bit of sabotage. Common sense prevailed and I knew that if I did drink tonight and didn't get the job it would do untold damage to my already fragile confidence and self esteem that would have repercussions down the way for months if not years.

Anyway, I am as prepared as I can be and I just have to have confidence and belief in myself.

That's all for now.

Ginger Groundhog

9 comments:

  1. I hope repost works.
    I missed you and am so happy you are back! You will do great. Deep breaths!
    Hugs and love

    Anne (ainsobriety)

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    1. Thanks Anne, lovely to hear from you. Once more down the road I head a little older and hopefully wiser, although my wisdom seems to carry a price.
      Hope you are doing ok and looking forward to your next post.

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  2. And then tomorrow you'll already be on Day 5 again! Keep on going, Ginger!!!

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    1. Day 5 is done and I'm still on track. Hope you are doing ok and glad to see your comments here always, thank you for your support.

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  3. Fantastic that you didn't indulge with that kind of pressure. But now you get to interview with clear eyes and confidence. Yay, you!

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    1. Yes waking up this morning with a clear but nervous head was amazing. Plus, my stomach was bad all day either nerves or something I ate and the thought of having to deal with alcohol from the night before makes me shudder to think.

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  5. You will be great! A little self respect, built from 4 days sober, can go a long way in the way you present yourself. Go get 'em!

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  6. Yes thankfully I was able to present myself with confidence and professionalism, look the panel in the eye and feel sure that it was all me. So glad it's over but so glad I didn't feel any regret at the interview

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