Sunday, 11 March 2018

Day 15 and all is well

I have just abandoned a post I was half way through as it wasn't shaping up as I anticipated. So I thought I would ditch that just to let you know that I haven't been neck deep in vodka but have been riding the crest of the DIY wave and am 3/4 of the way finished decorating the downstairs bathroom.
I am kicking myself I haven't taken a before shot as it was in bad shape and I wouldn't let visitors use it. Now it is starting to not only look good but great.

I have been so distracted and working so late each evening that I haven't thought once about having a drink. Dare I say it........ I almost feel the same as I did when I hadn't drink for months. That feeling of calm, free from inner turmoil about should I or shouldn't I. It's hard to explain but when you haven't drunk for a long time your brain is just thinking about other things and it's a non issue. That's what I have had for the last few days and it has given me a glimpse of what I had and what I am striving for again. I know I'm not cured and I am not making any proclamations here but it felt so good and so free to be just engaged in life rather than the constant obsessive thoughts

There has also been some pretty serious thinking about just how bad things were and how I was losing ground in my life and patching up the cracks hoping the world at large wasn't noticing the patchwork pattern of repair. I know I am not out of the woods yet and have a long way to go but these few days of freedom have reminded me of what is available to all of us if we just stick with our intention to not have just one drink.

Warm wishes to all from a very at peace Ginger.

13 comments:

  1. I'm happy for you, this moment of peace you're experiencing! My your freedom ring long and far! And terrific news about the DIY! Great sounds wonderful, enjoy the new bathroom!! xoxo, ll

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    1. That feeling of peace is priceless. Got so much more to do in the house but it is good to have made a start.

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  2. Oh this is a great post! The metaphor is good but reading that you are starting to get the good feelings back is even better. Way to go!

    Hugs,
    S

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    1. Remembering how that feels is brilliant as I can use it as an anchor for when the cravings make an unwelcome return.

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  3. Great news, Ginger! You are on the path to freedom, joy and peace, Keep going!

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    1. Yes I am! I lost my way for a while but I think I'm am back on track now

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  4. Something I've realised in the past 10 days (double digits, yay!) is how much my unpleasant slothfulness of recent years has been totally out of my character and totally down to my excessive evening drinking. I've just started chipping away at jobs that have not been done, and cakes that I've wanted to bake, and pictures I've wanted to draw, and it's like part of me thinks it should feel like a HUGE effort but the other part of me is rejoicing that it's really very achievable now I'm not numb. More strength to your DIY arms, Ginger, and I'm glad I've discovered your blog. Mrs (Bec) Sobers

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    1. Well done you on 10 days, that is a big achievement. I know I have been trying to get past that for a while now. Slothfulness is a great way to describe it, a colleague asked me a few weeks back if I had had a good/busy weekend? I'm not sure what words came out of my mouth but in my head I remember thinking "No, I did nothing but drink and feel hungover"
      Keep it up it is worth it.

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    2. The sober morning headaches are killing me though! So unfair to feel more hungover now than I have in years of heavy drinking...

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  5. A little peace is nothing to sneeze at!

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  6. Hello! Well done on the 15 days and for riding that DIY wave (something I haven't dared to do yet).

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