I have just abandoned a post I was half way through as it wasn't shaping up as I anticipated. So I thought I would ditch that just to let you know that I haven't been neck deep in vodka but have been riding the crest of the DIY wave and am 3/4 of the way finished decorating the downstairs bathroom.
I am kicking myself I haven't taken a before shot as it was in bad shape and I wouldn't let visitors use it. Now it is starting to not only look good but great.
I have been so distracted and working so late each evening that I haven't thought once about having a drink. Dare I say it........ I almost feel the same as I did when I hadn't drink for months. That feeling of calm, free from inner turmoil about should I or shouldn't I. It's hard to explain but when you haven't drunk for a long time your brain is just thinking about other things and it's a non issue. That's what I have had for the last few days and it has given me a glimpse of what I had and what I am striving for again. I know I'm not cured and I am not making any proclamations here but it felt so good and so free to be just engaged in life rather than the constant obsessive thoughts
There has also been some pretty serious thinking about just how bad things were and how I was losing ground in my life and patching up the cracks hoping the world at large wasn't noticing the patchwork pattern of repair. I know I am not out of the woods yet and have a long way to go but these few days of freedom have reminded me of what is available to all of us if we just stick with our intention to not have just one drink.
Warm wishes to all from a very at peace Ginger.